45 min remaining. And as with any other marathon, the last mile is the most difficult. Mistress Tessa logged in during this period, and I can’t see her. I can’t go to her, hug her, kiss her, love her, or even tell her how much I love her or how much I miss her. I almost thought I’d be off the emotional rollercoaster after 32 and a half hours encased in this nightmare. Life has had other ideas for me, it seems. I feel horrible. I’m tempted to safeword, or worse, cheat my way out of the suit. Mistress, I love you SOOO much and miss you TERRIBLY. I have been through the grinder this last week and I can’t just drop all this. I MUST finish this. Punish me as you will. I Love You.
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8:22 pm
:hugs: missed you tonight hon. I’m sorry it’s gotten so rough.
I know you can do this. you have the finish line in sight. Just wish I could be there when you are free. ;_;
8:26 pm
I am here… and look forward to seeing you free
*kisses*
I still think you are craZy
Love you…
-R-
8:35 pm
Thank you both. I’m nearly done here. What a bizarre journey, a nightmare… with the occasional joyous moment, oddly enough. Once the Custodian releases me, I’ll see if I can remove the suit without an Operator. I am not sure how this works… but I’ll see what I can do. I want out.
8:49 pm
i love you sis, sooo very much and i am so proud of you. This was hard on me not being able to be close to you, i can only imagine how hard it was on you. *sends tons of hugs to her sister* you are getting a bunch of those when you get home where you belong.
11:39 pm
I hope you are out of it by now sweetie. You were strong and you made it. Be very proud of yourself. When you look back later you will smile and be happy that you took that opportunity to find out your limits. I am sure you learned a lot about yourself and I am also sure you don’t want to miss the experience in the end *smile*
*Hugs*
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