*rubs her shortened hair nervously* Been out for a couple hours now, had to go and see Mistress and beg forgiveness. The experience was almost a nightmare for me - not being able to be with my family was the worst pain I have yet to experience in SL. Yet… there is some small, dark, repressed part of me that wants to go back there and hide. That part of me IS NOT ME… but it is that seed of doubt in all of us. … “Leave me alone!” “Why does it hurt so bad?” “I can’t do it!” “I’m so scared!” … That is the Bane in all of us. Many people don’t understand the allure of Banishment. Some see it as a cry for attention. Some see it as running from problems. Some see the kink… Some just see it as stupid.  In the end, though - we all have a little Bane in us, somewhere.

Being Banished… was incredibly difficult.  I wish my fellow Banes still in the system good health, and good luck.  And to B-9140… *blows a kiss*  I wish you well, sweetie.  S-7896 has been retired… and Spikey is back in the world.  If Boy returns, please, look me up.  I’ll buy her a cup of coffee.

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45 min remaining. And as with any other marathon, the last mile is the most difficult. Mistress Tessa logged in during this period, and I can’t see her. I can’t go to her, hug her, kiss her, love her, or even tell her how much I love her or how much I miss her. I almost thought I’d be off the emotional rollercoaster after 32 and a half hours encased in this nightmare. Life has had other ideas for me, it seems. I feel horrible. I’m tempted to safeword, or worse, cheat my way out of the suit. Mistress, I love you SOOO much and miss you TERRIBLY. I have been through the grinder this last week and I can’t just drop all this. I MUST finish this. Punish me as you will. I Love You.
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L-7799 is drinking a cup of coffee? The only thing I can figure out is that she’s been released, yet didn’t complete processing. Bizarre.
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Am at KelleyTech…. and I see Operator Sophia with B-9140 and L-7799. They are both WAY too close… what is going on? I have circled a couple of times, trying to understand what is transpiring, but I dare not get closer for fear of a contact violation. To top it off, L-7799 is wearing shackles - that’s not supposed to happen. I’m so confused by these events… I keep struggling against my Custodian, hoping I can damage it or rip it off. I know I’ve got less than 8 hours at this point, but I want this over.
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I’m tired. I want my home. I want my family. I want my bed. I did make it thru the day with NO violations. Of course, that comes with a price… I also didn’t have any contact. Saw B-9140 again, and I hope she’s ok - there was someone standing right next to her for the longest time. I hope that person was her operator, but I don’t think it was… that person didn’t even have Banishment Program tags. B-9140, if you read this, I hope you are doing ok. I think there’s a light at the end of the tunnel. I’m down to 8 hrs 41 minutes remaining, and can’t wait to be out. But for now, it’s time to curl back up into a ball and go to sleep.
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Time… got nothing but that now. 9 hrs, 7 minutes. Just gotta keep going without violations. I have been in the helmet for 24 hours and 7 minutes. I’d be out now, if I hadn’t received violations.
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Thanks, Pet. It means a lot to be so well supported. *mimes a quick hug before the Custodian gets her*
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There is Master and family… so close, but they may as well be a thousand miles away. Engineer Sophia wasn’t lying when she said this will be the hardest thing I ever do in SL. 11 hours, 20 minutes remaining.
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And I miss you VERY much. *cries*
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Wow, its beautiful….
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